Nikki Blackwell

I didn’t know it was possible to feel this alone in the world. It feels like everyones turned their back on me when I needed them the most. I feel empty. Drained. A shadow of my old self. I’ve been sitting here, not talking for hours. I don’t want to talk. I don’t want to talk to anyone. No one understands. No one tries to. I give up. Life’s a bitch and then you die, so why even try.

I’m going to be honest right now. My future is scary right now. I’m about to be emancipated and I don’t have a damn thing to my name. The  only way I can still go to college is if I sign up for the Navy. There’s nothing wrong with that. The problem is that it goes against everything I believe in. I don’t believe in war. And I don’t want to kill anyone. But times are hard, and you have to do what you have to do.

It honestly does suck though, all of this shit. I feel pretty damn alone in this world  right now. 

Throughout this whole thing, I’ve really learned who my friends are.

And they were not at all who I thought they were. 

For everyone that’s been there for me through all of this, thank you. And I’ll never forget that. And for those of you  who turned your back on me when I needed you the most. Here’s a big FUCK YOU just for you.